Adrift

Here's how I feel at the moment.

I'm sitting in a life raft in the middle of the open ocean. It's not the sturdiest raft. It's got a few holes in it...but they're patched up. It's keeping me afloat just fine but there's always the chance it could start to lose air. So, I'm searching for another raft. There are actually several floating around me. I've got my choice of which one to jump on. But they don't look much sturdier than the one I'm on. Looks can be deceiving I guess. I could jump to one of these other rafts and it just might be the one that takes me to semi-permanent safety. On the other hand...it might pop as soon as I land. Not only that, I could jump and then spot a boat in the distance...the boat that I've been looking for. It's kind of the "saving grace." Unfortunately, there's the chance I can't make it to the boat from a different life raft. So I face the choice of staying where I am and waiting for the boat...or saying "screw it" and jump to another raft while I have the chance.

Does any of this make any sense?

Still here

Um...hi.

I'm still here.

I don't know why I haven't posted anything in nearly a month.

My only excuse is that life's complicated.

Check out what some jackass did to Jasper.

No clue how it happened. No clue when it happened. Just noticed it one morning. The good news is that it's fixed. It cost me $250...but Jasper is new enough and good-looking enough to warrant an unblemished facade.

I turned 30 less than five months ago. I had big plans to make my 30th year a great one. Well...things don't always work out. It's not that things have been bad. It's just that things have been unexpected, complicated, and frustrating. I want to go into detail. But I've never really poured out my heart and soul on this blog. I've had it for nearly five years. Even with infrequent updates, I love having it. I look back on old posts...and it's like a journal for me. But it's not where I reveal all my secrets. It's not where I unburden myself.

I will say there's a lot of uncertainty right now...both professionally and personally. I suppose a 30th year of life is a good time to work it all out.