The right time.
The right place.
The right job.
I remember the feeling I've had before moving to a new place. Whether it was Glacier National Park, New Zealand, Bozeman, or Boise...I was nervous. I was apprehensive. I was unsure. Yes, I was excited. But excitement can be drowned out by uneasiness. In every place that I've gone, I've found something good. But there was always the apprehension beforehand.
Portland is the first place I've arrived in and felt completely at ease. (Job jitters are a different story. I had those...but thankfully they're gone now). It just felt right to be here. I've certainly had a lot on my mind but nearly all of that is from the past. It's all from where I WAS. Nothing about where I AM makes me uneasy.
I've only been here about 7 weeks. But I already have some good friends. The job is going well. I don't have much to complain about. In fact, I've got a lot to be excited for. I really have no idea what's in store for me. But I just have a feeling it's going to be good.
I remember a documentary I saw a long time ago. It was all about Ronald Reagan. Something stuck out at me from that documentary that I think about all the time. One of Reagan's daughters was asked what she admired about her father. She said that he was simply comfortable in his own skin. It kind of blindsided me. I was NOT comfortable in my own skin...and I was jealous of anyone who was. Fast forward to last weekend. I was sitting inside the apartment of a new friend I've made here. A group of us were having dinner and drinking wine. Suddenly a smile spread across my face and a thought popped into my head. "You're life's gonna change here," I said silently to myself. "It won't be long before you're comfortable in your own skin."
I feel good about what's happening in my life. But more than anything, I feel good about being happy with myself. It's been a long time coming...and while I'm not entirely there just yet...I've got a feelin' that it's coming soon.
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